Night is quiet. All I can hear is the machanical wheels turning in the humidifier; and the constant buzzing in my ears. The tiny little buzzing sound is like a group of crikets singing in the faraway bushes. If I don’t pay attention, it can be easily missed. Then there comes the chatters. It gets…Read more »
Tag: #mentalhealth
Demon
“I want to end my life.” She kept on looking out of the car window, watching all the clouds flying backwards, “but I don’t want to hurt my kid or parents.” She intentionally left his name out of her worries. Because she was sure that his life won’t be affected too much if she died.…Read more »
Say Something
I should say something. But nothing comes out. I am not sure if you ever had this feeling, like it is wrong to feel how you feel. That is how I feel almost all the time. Friend said:”but you have everything that I want. You are healthy; you have a loving family and a great…Read more »
Be A Cloud
“When you look at the clouds they are not symmetrical. They do not form fours and they do not come along in cubes, but you know at once that they are not a mess. […] They are wiggly but in a way, orderly, although it is difficult for us to describe that kind of order.…Read more »
Existence
Man is condemned to be free. Condemned because he did not create himself, yet is nevertheless at liberty, and from the moment he is thrown into this world he is responsible for everything he does. Jean-Paul Sartre Who am I? Why am I here? Where am I heading towards? I often find myself ponder into…Read more »
Shower
When was the last time that you took a shower? No, I mean really taking a shower and just taking a shower. Not standing in the water reminiscing on some arguments you had with your high school boyfriend; or judging your belly fat because the half bag of Doritos you inhaled last night is still…Read more »
Therapy Tech
This was our 3rd therapy session via video conferencing since the social distancing rule put everyone behind doors. Honestly, there is not much difference to me whether to see Jen sitting on the couch across from me or behind a screen. Other than the occasional lagging in her voice or sudden disappearance of her face,…Read more »
WFH
9:30 am, I am sitting in my pajamas with a messy bun hanging on to the side of my head. Although it looks like that I just rolled out of my bed, I am actually an hour and half into work and have already finished most of the tasks required. My mom is panicking because…Read more »
Be Careful What You Wish For
One normal day in January, I heated my lunch in the microwave and sat down at the table in our office lunch room. Two of the new hires walked in as well. For the past 2 months or so, our office on boarded 7 newbies and I was assigned to train 5 of them, one…Read more »
Toilet Paper
Sorry, I meant to say COVID-19. For some reason, now when I think about COVID-19, rolls of toilet paper image just pop up in my mind. SARS (SARS-CoV) started in November 2002, when first infected humans were identified in Guangdong province of China. I was in Guangdong province of China at the time. In my…Read more »