Be A Cloud

“When you look at the clouds they are not symmetrical. They do not form fours and they do not come along in cubes, but you know at once that they are not a mess. […] They are wiggly but in a way, orderly, although it is difficult for us to describe that kind of order.…Read more »

Shower

When was the last time that you took a shower? No, I mean really taking a shower and just taking a shower. Not standing in the water reminiscing on some arguments you had with your high school boyfriend; or judging your belly fat because the half bag of Doritos you inhaled last night is still…Read more »

Therapy Tech

This was our 3rd therapy session via video conferencing since the social distancing rule put everyone behind doors. Honestly, there is not much difference to me whether to see Jen sitting on the couch across from me or behind a screen. Other than the occasional lagging in her voice or sudden disappearance of her face,…Read more »

WFH

9:30 am, I am sitting in my pajamas with a messy bun hanging on to the side of my head. Although it looks like that I just rolled out of my bed, I am actually an hour and half into work and have already finished most of the tasks required. My mom is panicking because…Read more »

Blank

I am drawing a blank. In fact, I have been in this blank state of mind, or rather, an extremely muddy mind, for weeks. I started on five different drafts on different topics; none of which had more than one complete paragraph. Ideas kept on bubbling up in front of me, however, I can’t seem…Read more »

Unplug

Yet another day. No matter how much mental struggle that I went through yesterday; how intense was my nightmares; or how impossible everything seemed like; yet now I am living another day. My brand new induction cook top have some fancy LED sensors that supposed to reflect the intensity of heat by different length of…Read more »

Time

I was gonna name this “Death” but on a second thought, that is not what I am actually afraid of. Death is a state, an end result for (unfortunately) all of us living beings. Time, on the other hand, is a quite abstract yet concrete concept. We all have time but none of us really…Read more »

NOTHING

I must have gained 20 lbs in the past few weeks. I am also too chicken to stand on a scale to verify the actual figure. As soon as the temperature drops below zero, and the Sun is only available during business hours (the exact hours when I am locked in the downtown glass building…Read more »

Library

When was the last time that you have been to a library? I mean not like going in, grab a book and leave; but actually finding a place to sit and spending some time inside a library. Back in University days, library was like a second home to me. Being far away from my sweet…Read more »