Kindness

Out of no where, I got this text from my previous boss. He was having lunch with my other ex-boss and somehow, they both thought of me and decided to cheer me up. For the past month or so, I have been trying to fight off this voice in my head:”You are the reason that…Read more »

Therapy III

I start to think that there is some magical chemical in the air of Jen’s office. More than half of the things I said on her couch were buried so deep in my mind that I didn’t even know they were there. “I want a dark hole to go hide in.” I found myself lashing…Read more »

Knitting

My anxiety treatment is getting expensive, if we are now adding the cost of knitting as part of my therapy. Yesterday afternoon at around 4:45 pm, I had this sudden urge to knit something. A scarf to be specific, I wanted to knit a scarf for J. The days are getting shorter and the tree…Read more »

World Mental Health DAY

October 10. Yes, that is TODAY! Today is World Mental Health Day. It is ridiculous and sad to know that people, on average, wait 8 to 10 years before seeking help for mental illness largely due to stigma. “Oh, you are just lazy.” “You are just weak and whiny.” “It’s all in your head and…Read more »

Therapy II

Woah my first ever sequel! And thank you for waiting so patiently for this my seven dedicated readers! Sitting on her couch, I reached for a long woolly pillow and held it on my lap. The giant ceiling-to-floor window was right beside this comfortable couch. A line of birds (probably the signature Canada Geese) were…Read more »

Failure

I was born to make mistakes, not to fake perfection. Drake I was walking on our dusty treadmill wearing a wireless headphone blasting motivational speech for 40 minutes non stop. Oh, you read that right, I did say that I was on a treadmill last night. A lot of people have a treadmill in the…Read more »

Therapy

It is not easy to go through therapy. Let me skip all the mental debates of whether or not we should go seek for help from a psychologist. That is a whole other chapter in itself. It takes a lot of courage to acknowledge that I have a mental illness and professional help will be…Read more »