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“Twenty years” sounds so long. Yes, I am having one of those senior moments before making my new year resolution. Twenty years ago, I just entered junior high. My parents gave me a silver Discman, replacing my Walkman, and a purple little Nokia phone. Time was moving slower back then as I remembered. I spent…Read more »

Therapy IV

“Jen, what’s wrong with me? Honestly, I am so tired of all these things. I am tired of talking about it, thinking about it, confused by it and drained by whatever this is.” Before heading into my therapist’s office, I didn’t even know whether I should still go through with it. What’s the point anyway?…Read more »

NOTHING

I must have gained 20 lbs in the past few weeks. I am also too chicken to stand on a scale to verify the actual figure. As soon as the temperature drops below zero, and the Sun is only available during business hours (the exact hours when I am locked in the downtown glass building…Read more »

Library

When was the last time that you have been to a library? I mean not like going in, grab a book and leave; but actually finding a place to sit and spending some time inside a library. Back in University days, library was like a second home to me. Being far away from my sweet…Read more »

Kindness

Out of no where, I got this text from my previous boss. He was having lunch with my other ex-boss and somehow, they both thought of me and decided to cheer me up. For the past month or so, I have been trying to fight off this voice in my head:”You are the reason that…Read more »

Therapy III

I start to think that there is some magical chemical in the air of Jen’s office. More than half of the things I said on her couch were buried so deep in my mind that I didn’t even know they were there. “I want a dark hole to go hide in.” I found myself lashing…Read more »

Knitting

My anxiety treatment is getting expensive, if we are now adding the cost of knitting as part of my therapy. Yesterday afternoon at around 4:45 pm, I had this sudden urge to knit something. A scarf to be specific, I wanted to knit a scarf for J. The days are getting shorter and the tree…Read more »