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Therapy N+1
I lost count. Before the therapy started, I was thinking about asking my Therapist if she thinks I still need therapy. What is the end goal in this? For me to totally get healed from all my anxieties and depression? I doubt that would happen. Does that ever happen? Raise your hand if you are
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Silent Night
Night is quiet. All I can hear is the machanical wheels turning in the humidifier; and the constant buzzing in my ears. The tiny little buzzing sound is like a group of crikets singing in the faraway bushes. If I don’t pay attention, it can be easily missed. Then there comes the chatters. It gets
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Demon
“I want to end my life.” She kept on looking out of the car window, watching all the clouds flying backwards, “but I don’t want to hurt my kid or parents.” She intentionally left his name out of her worries. Because she was sure that his life won’t be affected too much if she died.
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Say Something
I should say something. But nothing comes out. I am not sure if you ever had this feeling, like it is wrong to feel how you feel. That is how I feel almost all the time. Friend said:”but you have everything that I want. You are healthy; you have a loving family and a great
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Be A Cloud
“When you look at the clouds they are not symmetrical. They do not form fours and they do not come along in cubes, but you know at once that they are not a mess. […] They are wiggly but in a way, orderly, although it is difficult for us to describe that kind of order.
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The Chandelier under a bridge
Once upon a time, a person thought:”How brilliant would it be if we install a giant chandelier under a bridge!” Then a group of people clapped and cheered about this gorgeous idea about adding this luxurious art to the city. Then $4.8 million dollars later, here we have it: the chandelier under a bridge. When
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Existence
Man is condemned to be free. Condemned because he did not create himself, yet is nevertheless at liberty, and from the moment he is thrown into this world he is responsible for everything he does. Jean-Paul Sartre Who am I? Why am I here? Where am I heading towards? I often find myself ponder into
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Shower
When was the last time that you took a shower? No, I mean really taking a shower and just taking a shower. Not standing in the water reminiscing on some arguments you had with your high school boyfriend; or judging your belly fat because the half bag of Doritos you inhaled last night is still
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Therapy Tech
This was our 3rd therapy session via video conferencing since the social distancing rule put everyone behind doors. Honestly, there is not much difference to me whether to see Jen sitting on the couch across from me or behind a screen. Other than the occasional lagging in her voice or sudden disappearance of her face,
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WFH
9:30 am, I am sitting in my pajamas with a messy bun hanging on to the side of my head. Although it looks like that I just rolled out of my bed, I am actually an hour and half into work and have already finished most of the tasks required. My mom is panicking because
Bloken English
Bloken English, broken souls, seeking peace and sushi rolls
Bloken English 