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Be Careful What You Wish For
One normal day in January, I heated my lunch in the microwave and sat down at the table in our office lunch room. Two of the new hires walked in as well. For the past 2 months or so, our office on boarded 7 newbies and I was assigned to train 5 of them, one
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Toilet Paper
Sorry, I meant to say COVID-19. For some reason, now when I think about COVID-19, rolls of toilet paper image just pop up in my mind. SARS (SARS-CoV) started in November 2002, when first infected humans were identified in Guangdong province of China. I was in Guangdong province of China at the time. In my
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Therapy VII
New records. It was the first time that I had a complete meltdown during a session; and the first time that I made the psychologist cry (more like tearing up). Is this progress or deterioration? I told Jenn that her office was a safe place for me. I knew that when I sat on her
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A bit heavy reading
“Desperation and fear can make people do a lot of things.” A phrase that comedian Trevor Noah said in the Netflix show with Jerry Seinfeld “Comedians in cars getting coffee”. Racism sounds like such a heavy and serious subject that I always try to avoid discussing it. In that Netflix episode, Trevor was explaining “apartheid”
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Blank
I am drawing a blank. In fact, I have been in this blank state of mind, or rather, an extremely muddy mind, for weeks. I started on five different drafts on different topics; none of which had more than one complete paragraph. Ideas kept on bubbling up in front of me, however, I can’t seem
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Unplug
Yet another day. No matter how much mental struggle that I went through yesterday; how intense was my nightmares; or how impossible everything seemed like; yet now I am living another day. My brand new induction cook top have some fancy LED sensors that supposed to reflect the intensity of heat by different length of
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Hide
Have you had that feeling that you just want to go hide somewhere? Maybe just for a little bit, away from all the people and all the demands, responsibilities, expectations, deadlines…. I know it is not the right way to deal with life and realistically, this does not erase any issues but rather making things
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Therapy VI
I was standing in front of a wooden door, with my hand on the golden doorknob. The color of the doorknob was a little worn out. Behind this door, it was a bright open space that has all the equipment I would need to create whatever I want. I was waiting there, at the door,
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Time
I was gonna name this “Death” but on a second thought, that is not what I am actually afraid of. Death is a state, an end result for (unfortunately) all of us living beings. Time, on the other hand, is a quite abstract yet concrete concept. We all have time but none of us really
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Therapy V
I couldn’t recall much of my most recent therapy session with Jen. I only vaguely remember that I talked myself out of a mental cluster, with her minimal interference. Instead of being my therapist, Jen is more like a highly skilled and unbiased (and expensive) friend who is always selflessly attending to my needs, in
Bloken English
Bloken English, broken souls, seeking peace and sushi rolls
Bloken English 