Tag: #mentalhealth
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20 20
“Twenty years” sounds so long. Yes, I am having one of those senior moments before making my new year resolution. Twenty years ago, I just entered junior high. My parents gave me a silver Discman, replacing my Walkman, and a purple little Nokia phone. Time was moving slower back then as I remembered. I spent…
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Therapy IV
“Jen, what’s wrong with me? Honestly, I am so tired of all these things. I am tired of talking about it, thinking about it, confused by it and drained by whatever this is.” Before heading into my therapist’s office, I didn’t even know whether I should still go through with it. What’s the point anyway?…
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NOTHING
I must have gained 20 lbs in the past few weeks. I am also too chicken to stand on a scale to verify the actual figure. As soon as the temperature drops below zero, and the Sun is only available during business hours (the exact hours when I am locked in the downtown glass building…
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Library
When was the last time that you have been to a library? I mean not like going in, grab a book and leave; but actually finding a place to sit and spending some time inside a library. Back in University days, library was like a second home to me. Being far away from my sweet…
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Therapy III
I start to think that there is some magical chemical in the air of Jen’s office. More than half of the things I said on her couch were buried so deep in my mind that I didn’t even know they were there. “I want a dark hole to go hide in.” I found myself lashing…
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Knitting
My anxiety treatment is getting expensive, if we are now adding the cost of knitting as part of my therapy. Yesterday afternoon at around 4:45 pm, I had this sudden urge to knit something. A scarf to be specific, I wanted to knit a scarf for J. The days are getting shorter and the tree…
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World Mental Health DAY
October 10. Yes, that is TODAY! Today is World Mental Health Day. It is ridiculous and sad to know that people, on average, wait 8 to 10 years before seeking help for mental illness largely due to stigma. “Oh, you are just lazy.” “You are just weak and whiny.” “It’s all in your head and…
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Therapy II
Woah my first ever sequel! And thank you for waiting so patiently for this my seven dedicated readers! Sitting on her couch, I reached for a long woolly pillow and held it on my lap. The giant ceiling-to-floor window was right beside this comfortable couch. A line of birds (probably the signature Canada Geese) were…
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Therapy
It is not easy to go through therapy. Let me skip all the mental debates of whether or not we should go seek for help from a psychologist. That is a whole other chapter in itself. It takes a lot of courage to acknowledge that I have a mental illness and professional help will be…
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Fear of Traveling
As soon as I dipped my toes in the pool, with a chilling glass of champagne in one hand and a chocolate covered strawberry in another, I knew this was all worth it. A month before this moment, J booked our flights. “United? We are going to be flying with United?!” Not surprisingly, I started…
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